peace...

finally i asked for a last hug ... so......... much so .... i dunno wat to say about it ... that hug nearly made me cry ... but have to hold it back .. me dun wan people to see ... especially her .... i feel so.. weird... i can no longer talk like we use to ... all we have is silents... nth else.... i'm speechless beside her .. so speechless.... i dun wan to go school ... i wish that feeling could fate away fast.. .......i guess i need more time.. to get over it ... to really get over it .......

Recovery

wooo recently weather so COLD ...... struggle out of bed sia in the monrning ... XD torturing to abandon my bed!!! class feels weird... to see her as a class mate and not a gf ... i guess it takes time for me to recover hmmmm .... i wish i can hug her one last time ... but so hard to say it out ... few days passed ... still so hard to say ... haizzz.... my heart cannot ease ... i dun like that feeling ..... cold night .... makes me wan to sleep early XD sleep is the best thing i can do , a place where i can put down my feeling for few hours

Gone feelings

today was a very heavy day .. as usual but its ended with a light feeling as that pressuring stone dropped ... yes.. we broke up.. at the point where thats the best choice to go for .. better then both feels and gets the torture...i wan just smiles.. normally .. its sweet .. that i sees it and we are still friends.. but its sure ache abit ... ^^ my mood have came back ... feeling so much better ... :D

!!???

my recent days was like so moodless i drown myself in anime and sleeping slacking on bed ....i'm like a worm ...... lifeless restless... moodless... haiz....luckily theres animation to kill my time... my haiz....nth much to say ... i wish tml come fast.....

lost

haiz.. i'm so lost and confuse recently ... so weird ... so cold feeling ...now i dun know wat my gf wants and at is she thinking ? am i'm not loving enough ? maybe i just can't make her laugh easily like wat others can haiz...
i'm so lost and confuse sooo soo soo lost ... i dun know wat am i thinking i dun know wat to do... just lost...........haiz...

BUSY!

wow its been 10 days since my last entry.... so busy!!!
its been work work work AND sleep XD. transformer the movie! its so nice! aww i wish i had a car like that ?bumerbee? can't remember how to spell its name XD but its cool to have that as a car hehe and the leader *something* prime lol strong sia and COOL !!! big trunk big body hehe unfair XD i wish there will be tranformer 2 hehe... hopefully. Finally after so many month of thinking me finally got time to take a blood take for hep B ,result was good i dun have hep B but beither do i have the vaccine T_T 1 dose cost $43 EX sia!! 1 dose done 2 more to go T_T heart pain~~~ how i wish i can just owkr and dun study XD hehe ... ARGH time to clear all my pile up homework T_T ITS JUST SO MUCH~~~~ AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

humans

its funny to see that in this world there are actually alot more types of people i dun know about , the bad attitude ones seems to be a more common thing to see in my daily life . i went to this house , theres no door bell the door is open while the metal grill is locked .. the owner was sitting near the door but back facing it ,all i can do is knock the metal grill and call for him . the moment i called , he turn and throw the phone he was holding on the table , i was like O.o he scare untill like that then install door bell la XD but i kind of evil to have this thought hehe . I wanna see more types of people ,once in awhile i get to see the good ones, human is so chim....