anger!!

lol .. well yesterday thx to someone with the surname lim and by the name wilmer .. ... i nearly kanna injury... due to a shelf he built ...with totally .. no brain and logic thinking ........ but luckilyi only kanna my armpit .. arbo he DIE ..... ahahaha when i reach home at .. 1+ ... i when on msn .. telling 6 people the same things .. and hoping for some reaction . and this is wat i said
: haiz
: i miss you
well ... reaction of them was .. unexpected hehe ... but heh heh ... just suddenly feels like trying it out lol ..... 4 guys 2 gals ... hehe
i notice ... that my eyesight are falling ... for certain reason i'm sure its falling .. i can feel it is ... and i really dun like this feeling ...i wonder... y ... hopefully it was just imagination .... haiz....
didn't sleep ...cause have to help mum work ... eh ...just reach home ... now half dead hehe its.... sleeping TIME!

headache ....

today i went to work ... well... this week is my last week there .. as i quited .. for personal reason hehe .... and well little do i expect that .. my actual last day of work which is friday .. ended up to be today .... kind of dun wan to leave there .. but .. haiz ... today .. morning rain .. afternoon rain .. night rain ... haiz ... drove to work .. today .. JAM .. go home time ..JAM .. haiz.. untill i head pain ... especially one bloody bangala today .. dare to cycle in front of me !! guess he dunno i am a reckless driver ... haiz ... force me to use the horn and horn him .. second time horning people .. in 7 months time ... lol guess thats how irritating he is ... suddenly .. wanted to drink soft drink with some of ..volka XD ... well it sure is nice .. for dunno wat reason ... haiz ... i'm yet confuse again ...

Sianed

XD .... today everything as normal ... go work ... go home...... BUT something diff ... i got hit by the bus de side mirror .. as it alight at the busstop ... -_- ... standing tooooo out ... PAIN sia lol everyone at the busstop got shocked lol ... so did i -_- ... but well ... IWAS GOOD .... for that moment .. i actually felt tall ... >.< .... that can be hit by the bus side mirror XD ....aahaha ... took 52 home ...... was plaing to sleep all the way ... UNTILLLLL one indian lady boarded the bus .. and sits beside me .. and well i was sleeping by then ... AND damn her .. she talks on the phone UNTILLL SO BLOODY loud .. and well i know the bus hardly anyone understand .. but i very tired wan to sleep T_T .... normally i will sleep fully for the 40 mins trip .. today i spend 20 mins under her voice torture .... ARGH!!!! slept at 7+ pm .. just woke up awhile ago ... later second round of sleeping .. me feel so sicky lol zzzzz

mooncake ? hmmm

just came back from outside .. with 2 childhood mate ahahah well i spent my mooncake festival like a normal day ... work .. . come home .. hahaha but just that help my friend transport dog lol O.o ... then shun bian go eat.. shun bian go sit downstair our block and chat ... then we started to itch .. as we sees .. lighters ..candles .. lantens .. leftover lol first we play candle ... then .... ahahah burning began XD but not very big de hehe quite fun la .. it been so long since i burnt a lanten ... and well ....i miss those days .. back then .. haiz ... for me ... i'm the type who always never will like my current life ... when i'm small i wish to grow up .. while when i'm older ... i wish for the younger days ... 2 more years.. and it will be freedown age .... my life crossed more then 1/5 ( dun expect to live untill 100) in a blink ... really a blink ........
when pure innocent and trust is there .. fun is always there ... but as knowledge grews.. less trust .. less innocent ... people do things ... no longer the way a kid can do it .. no longer so pure mindset ... its .. something i dun like .. i lost it .. and it will never comes back ..

break free

well .. i just finish watching 200 pounds beauty .. online .... hehe .. and then i know y people say its worth watching ... when i start wondering ... wat i wan and wat i have ... i wan to free the world adn not just always sit home to view that small area .. i wan to see ... NEW THINGS new PLACES ... new ... i wan to soar ... i wan to explore .... theres always a wild side of me .. and its always deep inside .. never will i bring it out .. nv will when wat i face is the real world ..real facts.. real things. . nth can be done like wat its like in a animation ... the place where that wildness wat bought to life ..... wat ? is human nature? i dun know . who ? am i ... i dun know ... wat can i do ? i dun know .. theres nth i know ... so i wan to see more learn more know more .. i hope .. i still have to chance ... i dun wish to always be in a well looking at the limited sky .. i wan to be IN the sky looking at the unlimited view from it .. and thats... wat i wan ... so ... life ... or should i say .. it was a prison for me ... for my life ... i wan to break freeeee ......... will i ? ahahaha everything things is linked ... in this world ... everything i do .. link to a future .. so wat will it be ?
Memories.....

MENTAL TORTURE!

working life in a bakery is easy haha act like a wood , do wat u r told to do , pretend not to hear or understand anything haha thats my way ^^ ... wearing like a doctor ... shower cap .... mask ... sometime also mistakely call wrong identity hahahah ..... hence .. its better for me to keep quiet and do my work ... .. welll .... its kind of .. fun as i learn new things .. eh .... but something sure bother me alot ... REAL lot its like a torture ... things i do .. i may be prepare ingrediant for the chef or help making the pastry or decorating it OR packeting the pastry ... well .. its my job to do wat i'm told to .. but haiz.. the most important THING .... i dun get to EAT it .. T_T ..... few hours on something so LOOKING tasty ... OMG ... thats the only thing i felt that is torturing me ... OH MAN .... the work is NOTHING but the temptation is real SOMETHING .... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh XD .....hungry.....

lazy

16 sept sun ...
plan to go jogging but suddenly got called for work XD .... money more important hehe ... when to work ... all the way till 2 am haha .. with boon kiat an jaric ... then go supper~~ omg ..so FULL untill .... round round hahahago homeabit hard to sleep haha
17 spet .. mon ..
meet jaric and daniel (T) and drove them to ngee ann poly lol ... so steep the slope ... haha fun XD went to bukit batok meet weesiang haha end up go eat and play acade untill ... 6++ go back bishan ... lol then planed to go swiming one ..end up play untill so late ... then boon kiat at work .. hence jaric came my house and camp awhile till later ... haha night swiming ..actually quite nice sia .. after all teh kids having lesson gone .. got the peace peace feeling .. hehe
Today ...
haiz ... got up at 7 .. rush out to take bus .. go Pandan loop ... FAR .... 1hr ++ distance hah ... go with renzheng,daniel(C) ,weiqiang haha to deli france bakery work as part time hehe ... well.... first day of course... still not used to it yet .... but kind of can say time fly pass quite fast .. haha hope to try out many new things and learn more more!!! XD ...... learn new thigns is my main aim work at deli hehe next holiday gonna try something else XD sian so late liao .. tml still need wake up early ... man .... office hour izzit the type of work for me hehe everyday somemore ... only sunday off haha hmmm sian ... ahahaha now i know how sian *someone* is liao hehe

memories..

i woke up today with tears in my eyes... i dreamt of my grandma ... 3 years after she died i never dream of her .. i almost totally forgot how she is like ...... but that dream ... so real ... even though its short ... but it bring tears out of me .. i dunno y ... just so weird. ..
drove my uncle back to IMH ..... quite big sia .. never been there before lol .... i find him quite poor thing .. walking a path he didn't wanted to walk ... and well thats life ... not much people can fulfil their dreams or watever thingy .. thats y stories of the impossible are fulfil by using drawings making animation blah blah blah ... how i wish that type of world is real ...

i wish to walk through a portal of worlds and experience many new things

so sianzzzz

13 sept
wa went to work in the morning .. 7+work up .. work till 6++ haha traffic JAMS i hate it !!! haiz ...went home to change clothes and well .. have this taoist thingy for my grandma thingy .. 3 years after death need some ceremony thingy it last all the way to friday afternoon haha zz sian sia hehe went out at 9 and drove jaric and daniel(tan) to pasir ris ... lol lost way YET again XD ... hahaha reach there 10 pm liao haha ... waste like 30 mins -_- go there for wei xiangs bday XD ... left after 12 am ... oh man i love this time .. so nice to speed hehe XD ........

today ..
ahhh morning help mum work .. my eye red red liao .. no sleep ... then manage to sleep for 2 hours ... haiz ... the ceremony thing starts from 10 end at 4 sia zz sian ..
benson just me go catch prawn lol XD end up i fell asleep .... sian SIA ... i wish i went .. it would be fun ... rather that being lonely at home XD .... haiz...

i walked into a room .. totally empty .. all i see is 4 walls .. nth else ... the door is locked i have no where to go ,all i'm left with is to stare blankly at the wall XD ...OH MAN ...

HO lidays~~~

lol finally the exam are over ...and i BELIEVE I CAN PASS lol XD ..... holiday liao .. i wan to find a full time job to pia for one month .. but say and do always is heaven and earth apart ... XD
i chill went down my spine when its holidays .. wonder ..hmmm a plan ?? advanture ? life ?

wat i see in this world i dun really understand quite well but eventually as i grew i'm always learning new things ... never ending .. more and more i wan to learn but how ? first step always is hard .. i guess determination is one thing i lack alot while courage is the other thing .. once in a while i will wonder .. how my brain thinks ... its weird lol. only when i flashback .. i think certian things should be or should not be done hahaha chim ..... life ... i wan to know more about LIFE XD

HEADACHE!!!!

sept 10/07
ahahaha today CMN EXAM IS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CHEERSS!!! AND I BELIEVE I CAN PASS!!!! XD SO HAPPY!!!!! BUT!!! DPA is next >.< ... die this one i totally no confidence ... haiz..... aiyo head pain hope tml go renzheng house study can really STUDY .. ehhehe XD
wa went with daniel(tan) ,jaric, and zhi mian to the dunno wat (choMP choMP) to eat .. so full haha never eat before beancurd with pearl de lol so weird xD on the way back ar.. SIBEI NOISY AH ... people always says 3 women = one market ... for us i think 4 guys = one vivo city .. LOL but damn dun hahah must go out with them more offen liao heheheh

ARGH

I HATE IT! I HATE IT! I HATE IT!!! i hate it when my mum ask me to sleep early ...I REALLY HATE IT ...... if its for a normal mum saying that it will be so nice but for my mum i doubt so she will also scold me if i dun sleep early and that i will have not enough sleep WHEN helping her deliver newspaper ... I HATE it ..... i'm so hating it .. its always like that .. when i'm awake up late she will just nag abit IF i dun have to help her the next day .. and if i DO she will give me the bloody piss of attitude ... as if she worry that i have not enough sleep and DELIVER THE WRONG houses ... I HAVE MY OWN LIFE .. i jsut wish for abit of it ... i've been living a life like not mine ... .................. WHEN can i get out of all this shit .. i'm doing it becuase shes my mum .. but .. i wan my own life too .. i'm 19 .... getting old ... i wan to enjoy while i still can .. T_T but do i have a choice ? .............

If my life could be like a game .. i jsut restart it if it dun end the way i wan .. i just restart it ... restart it .....

...

sat 080907
dragging my whole day ... i feel weird ... so weird ... so sian so boring .. went to work today .. i feel so diff today at work ... doing set up for sunday's event
after work went to renzheng house slack with benson and deniel(chua) there hahah till 10+ then go home....

home is a place of warm ..yet once in a while i du wish to go home .. for some reason i myself dun know .. i wan to run away to a quiet place, a place with everything new ... i wan a new adventure i wan .. a new life .. i'm always regret of things in the pass .. will i still ... continue regreting ? Life .. i wish to understand u more ....

Mood thinking...

thusdays.. went swiming at daryl's condo.... fun but sian haha.... i wan to go beach!!! roar!!! i wan to know more people!!! ......... i feel so weird.. at nite went out with childhood friend to sat supper. .. haha then chat untill morning .. go back sleep ... hence ... friday i pon sch hahaha

human .. emotional animal .. y .. we have to understand and know something called emotion exist ... all the mood and feeling is link to emotion... when will i really understand my feeling ? my mood ... my emotion? my life .. too dull ... i wan to add colours to it ... i came to this world of colours.. and as i grew it fade ... now till i finally realise ... i wan to find back all the colours that i lost from my past years ... i dun wan to regret my life for being so black and white ... i wish to go crazy for something crazy with no regret ... i'm out of teenage soon ... i wan something to be ..marked in my life hahaha ... my heart screams for excitment .... AHHHHHHHH

O.o....

aiya today same same la .. almost everyday like photocopy one .. wake up late ..mum nag .. go sch late hahaha then longbang friend home O.o ....lol today learn new place again heheh :D slowly understand singapore more lioa hehehehe ..dun feel like writing much XD (CUT)

bone crackingzzz

4 sept ,
ahahaha today .. pon sch la lol ~~ sian sia haha woke up 10 .. jio jaric go jogging swiming .. end up book kiat jio me go work XD so .. . win win situation is that ... all go work haha .... today help boss move thing from old house to new house hehehe ... so ... abit sian hehehe ... but ok la WORKing :D eh up help till 6pm then go off ... 7+ go swim -_- ..... haha then 9 when off XD go amk hub makan the food court ... then drive them home .. simple sia .. but tiring ... drive and work and drive and swim and drive hahahaha .... back ache sia .. haha today lost way yet again .. learn something new hahaa XD hope tml will be a better day :)

SHOIK~~

wahahahaha today sleep untill 9++ wake up and slack on bed till 10++ then get up ... i'm SO LAZY XD lesson starts at 9am O.o.... but i 12 then go out of house hehehehe today quite simple .. go sch 2 hrs plus .. finish liao haha longbang people home again lol renzheng ,daniel(chua) ,xue qi , liyu .. hahahaha suay sia today ... running on expressway(BKE) kanna 2 TP ... heng they just come to jio me back to left side hahaha ... phew phew phew heheheh hopefully no summon or anything hehehehe .... SCARED SIA ... -_- ... haven 1 years worx.. only 12 point ... XD reach home liao so sian XD tml PON SCH AR~~ go swim hehe .. so hope u SKY !!! DUN RAIN AR!! GIVE BE SHOIK SHOIK SUN!!! :D

BUSY BUSY

ahahahaha teachers day performance on friday was smooth .. but aiiya SIAN la nth much also hahaha plus wanted to go back sec sch T_T but last min go work ... $$ more important hehehhe .... sian lor .. sch go work .. till so late zzzzz then help mum work zzzzz reach home in the morning sleep all the way to afternoon hehe then went to meet up with my primary sch mate ... 7 YEARS i no contact them heheh ... so bad sia me .... everyday year they got gatehring i also no go XD first time go hehehe miss all of them sia ... but ... many stay the smae while theres afew SURprises heheh ....haha when to east coast park -_- meet and eat lol ...boring!! but alot things to chat hehehe ... then after that we when to clubbing XD .... FISRT TIME SIA ... hehe went to MOS .... so fun ..dance like siao hehe bang people like siao hahaha people behind me = suay people hehehe especailly those bangala hehehe fisrt time play untill so song. .... but my ear numb untilllll haha till now still got the feeling .. but shiok.....