chinese new year coming!!

hmmm cant wait till cny hehe ... over nite mahjong ... blah blah ... next week going malaysia buy clothes with jaric and nicholas lol BEFORE new year >.< eh eh so many movie out that i wanna watch .. ~~~
hope this year .. chinese new year .. a happy one .. a really NEW one .. to teh NEW me ^_^ lol ....
wednesday...
aiyo back to posting .. today so SCH >.. end up then know today no class lol end up go down to work instead lol then nite finish go nicholas house slack awhile lol then walk to my house >.< ... we planned to jog today hehe end up 6 drag untill 8+ then go jog lol then come back .. then sianed lol then nicholas playing online big 2 then i cook magee me then we ate then late liao tehn i drive him home then only 15 mins to go come back lol broke my own record sia then so sianed ... then ... writing blog lor ....then ... SLP....
tuesday ...
overslept ...lesson end early .. no sch .. go work ~ nite go home ....
monday....
overslept rush down sch .. lesson ended drove my friend home .. go home .. then ...go library then slack then go home then slp .... then ....

then then then .... so then ... but then .. hence...then ....then then .. i dunno then liao

half dead not alive

too much too ... to wrtie lol
first its today >.< just woke up not long ago lol my so called coma end up so fast finsh :( today .. i reached home around 9 +am lol.. from ? Sentosa~~ lol was working there .. doing some setup >.< half cannot tahan go home rest hehe finally ...can feel home again ... started working since ...friday afternoon ... kaoz.. same clothes .. 2 days ... very sticky very smelly >.< ... very *nua* feeling lol very shoik to work super long hours with only little sleep while traveling in taxi lol ~~and later 11 pm going for clearing lol ~~ tml can rest liao ~~ maybe pon sch >.<
wa wa wa~ work untill blur liao lol so blur+blank mode lol

previous things wanted to post....wednesday ... got cousin wedding lol dinner >.< ... so lovely lol they make their own flash cartoon on how they know and met and get together ... so cute and funny sia lol well the dinner starts .... poor waiter ,hes a newbie lol and kanna my father and his friend .. two so call *oldbies*(people who prefer self service) lol keep kanna my father and his friend double team nagging lol i laugh untill cannot ar ... the things come .. they will say : just put down no need portioning .. just but down... (quite loud) lol then that guy will have the *er.. er..* action lol so funny all the way like taht .. haha after that .. went nicholas house to *drink * ahaha .. >.< then go slp then go home >.<

busy slacking~

today ar.. 4 am .. someone called me ... my mum ... say wat newspaper truck pang chek as me go help -_- ... slp at 1+ lol my that brain really blank one when she woke me up .. so blank machiam coma mode lol then .. i saw a nice view one small small normal busstop got one row of vans~ 11 of them lol long O_O parked nice ncie lol haiz.. just reached home not long ago lol ... called my form teacher ask for leave form lol but cannot T_T but he say he give me attendance hehe :D but then tml have to treat him KFC liao zz bet with him if today i reach before 9 .. he treat , after 9 i treat >.< .... funny hor student and teacher like that bet >.<

yesterday nite wanna go swim with nich and jaric ... end up reach bishan complex ... FLOODED ..end up go eat dinner then play pool lol then go home -_- boring sia ...

sunday ..ahaha... evening went jogging with nich .. lol quite amaze he so much faster then me >.< fat liao~~~ ahhh ... too long no jog liao ... next time i MUST catch up with him ... and later MUST win him muhahaha ~~~ i wish i had NS friend to jog with me .. like nich's friends can push u to limit~~lol

time to slp~~~

myself ...

a 50 steps laughing at a 100 steps(direct translte from chinese) is wat i know myself to me .. in my eyes i only see mistakes done and not wat people done correctly .... unless its really impressive ... lol .....
i assume .. i'm the attention seeker type .. maybe quite a handful of people will hate me lol ... but both to be one ... i irritated maybe .. alot ... and grew this mouth to become so stinky ... its a habit i can say ... so hard to change now ....
it is said that once .. done often ...becomes a habit ... and it becomes natural ...well i guess ...
when the seed of lazyness is planted.. its grew fast ... overwhelmingly ... i lose myself ... excuses is wat i left and best at .... excuses .. to cover my lazyness ... to cover my mistakes my task to do ... everything ...
i feel so fake every now and then ...but y ? i dun know ...wat i do ... wat i think .. i'm starting to not know ... so....back to square one , .. who am i ?
everytime things are plan ..but ..to do ? haiz ... thoughts and actions are always heaven and earth to me ........
how i wish .. i can be like those animation character .. live life to the fullest and die without regret .. died for a reason ...... live their life ... with dare ...
dare to love ,dare to hate(direct translation from chinses) ...
things that i need to do .. i DRAG .... even over the deadline? over due ? forever ? i left so many things in my life undone ... i dun know even where to start with ... nor will i wan to to start with ....
sometimes i envy animal,insect ... they are bone .. they grow .. and understand their belonging.. their task ... and filful them ... and die off ... easy life ...no worries ? so ncie ...
y is life so hard to understand ? y must it be life? y .. y... so many why ..
i lost myself to myself ... so .. who am i ?
regrets is all i rmb in my life .. so many .. so many .. untill i dun rmb wat,when,why ,where,who,how...
can i make a better person ? unknown...
wats future for me? unknown...
wat is life given to me ? unknown...
y am i ...me..? unknown...
i'm lost into my own little maze...
to come out or not ? depends on myself ...
a jail with unlocked gates... to come out or not ? depends on me ...
haiz.....
hence ... Smile is all i need to rmb ... happy is all i wan ....
love ..? maybe later ... friends and family are currently my life ....

haiz planned to help me mum(real) to work on her paper works(she requested) but i plan to do it this week .. but given so many excuses i created myself .. i drag and push .. it ...now ... i wan to finish it one... shot ... hence.. i'm gonna tonn today to do it ... well ... i dunno wehter this time can keep my words or not ? my plan ? paperworks... and morning jogs after that and .....SLP ....*hopefully*

so much so ...

haiz ? last blog ? sunday -_- ... 5 days ago ... bad memory .... lol
monday ? when to sch for ... 1hr 30 mins to sit quietly and listen to my teacher nagging lol ... wat to do ? maybe all i can say is ... i see thigns my way >.<
tuesdays went to work lol end up drag till abit quite late >.< sianed ...
wed ? go sch worx ... till end .. then go work >.< morning -_- 3 + reach home zzz slp till thusday 1 pm hehe then gotta drive ... to boss house help move house >.< and dinner at nite with bear bear ~ , fiona grandma~ , jeanie ma , ME ...... aiyo all so moody lor ..nagging again hehe >.<
today -_- ... haizzz go sch take bus ... SLP till end stop -_- ... heng quite near my sch arbo die -_- ... take back ... reach class 30 mins late ...go in see only 4 people -_- LOL .....do my assignment lol END UP do so long finally got al the links ... my friend go CLOSE ... SIANED ... end up done nth -_- .... very sianed lol .... after sch rush home drive van go meet boss lol ... yesterdays moving half way done hehe .... today go finish it .. learnt new road new ways ... new places...
after work .... have to drive home .. lost my way till bedok ... so had my dinner there LOL ....drive bloody boon kiat to his church thingy zz home sweet home~~ lol
my wallet :( still no news... but i feel so much relax after wallet lost -_- ... weird eh ....LOL

simple me

am i too simple or wat? lol having a drink and off to sleep .. i woke up feeling more better and less headache lol it just feels... better .... but still making things complicated isnt my way of doing things i guess hehe ... at least for sure i know i'm wiht more mood today ... really to roll~ O.o .... off to jogg .....

bad day....

haiz... my plan ... to write a one week entry ... -_- ... haiz...... till yesterday ...still so fine ..during the 3 hrs home break .. wanted to blog .. but end up watching chipmunks lol but ... 11 back to work .. -_- ... lost my wallet ......haiz... so sianed feeling ... so so so sianed .. abit heartbroken somemore O.o lol got hweeling for the wallet liao T_T PRAY AR ... come back to me ar~~ my wallet T_T

new year ...new life... old memories...

its 2008 the second day? make it third....
suddenly its love i'm thinking lol nv experience it before.. till my 19 year old... nv knew how warm it felt like for hug and kisses lol see my mother(real) so not loving one XD lol nv even hug me before lor lol i've drag my life up till now ? a new change i aimed for in 2007 and some change did meet my target but how much more is there that i aim ? i forgotten about it ..my biggest chagne of my life is experiences and friends i met .. u all changed my life i feel so happy more warm more emotional? lol but still once in awhile i like to stay in my bush of clouds.. enjoy being confuse and lost...
many things to be kept many things to be understand ,many things to be many ... so many ...maybe its just part of the growing up that more things flows into the brain ...more memories fly into the pass ... the age increase... the thinking.. the stress the problem .... and the love i guess lol everything became complicated ..more and mroe. ...
when i was a child i wished i were 18 ... when i was 18 i wished i were 21 .. but now i'm 19 .. i wished i can go back to child ..so innocent so peaceful .so happy .... looking at them makes me envy and happy lol ... thats them XD .... how i used to be like .... i lost it since i grew up ... yet running away from reality is my choice. ...kiddish maybe hehe its less stress being like that ... i dun wanna go crazy one day like my uncle did .. i will hate myself if i ended up like that hehe ....its a quiet nite.. cold too lol nite to slp .... haiz .. later got bloodly cca meeting !! eat my beautiful holidays sia :(

new year? new boredom -_-...

well cant really sleep since 1 am++ reach home .. so watch anime ...and then blast music with headphone .... moving with music is wat i love the best XD .....slp 4+ lol wake up 9 ... so early sia so slp again XD ... 12 -_- ... then again!!! 2+ lol then wake up liao ... i wonder is it because of new year eh ? many people thinks of me XD hence missed me .. hence i kanna a bad flu that lasted for HOURS .... untill i keep drinking water lol .... drip and drip .. untill i scare later dehydrate will fever hehe .....so replenish water hehe lucky ar ... it stopped suddenly -_- ... lol ...and now .. i'm bored again hehe tml gotta go buy equipment to start training :D now ....
BACK TO MUSICSSSS lol

hot new year 2008 XD

it started with a simple 11 hrs of work .. then follow by dinner at Dome with fiona,jeanie,sabrina,nicholas,danson(me)and chun siong O.o lol not really filling lol then .. comes the bbq idea ... mashmallow crispy is NICE ..XD ... games were fun .. just that ... maybe its the weather that is toooooo hot XD lol never drink also can red lol it was a happy new year ... fun ... thx u guys for today lol love u all O.o lol *fainting*